Mi Vida Loca (My Crazy Life)

So it’s been a while since I have had the chance to write. I have missed it truly, for it is my escape... away from everyone... away from the real world... and sometimes away from myself. *lol* The weather here has been extremely nice, but will move up into the 90's this week. *mmm the hot sun* Last night I decided to give both dogs a bath outside on the porch for it seems to be a lot easier that way and it was very nice outside too. Jack was first and was already muddy from attacking the break in the water hose while I was watering the plants. *grrr* But he is oh so cute going after the water. I did him first thinking okay well since he is bigger than Jill I wouldn’t be so worn when I got all done. *laffs at myself* Well okay, so it went well. He stood there and let me scrub the crap out of him. He is so handsome when all clean. Then it was Jill’s turn. OMG did she have to fight me. She on the other hand isn’t to "thrilled" to get a bath with the water hose. Now when washing her inside all I have to say is "Jill in the tub" and she is there. I think I screamed at her 5 times last night before she came to me. She just stood there for a few moments and then started slowly moving closer to the front door. "Jill stay ...Jill stay ....Jill Pill I’m going to beat you if you move one more step ......JILLLLLLL!" *lmao* Oh my it was fun, I was soaked by the end. Mean while Jack is in the yard getting all dirty again. (See I shouldn’t have done him first) "Jack get over here." So two hours after I had started they where both clean and smelling like wet dogs. YAY what fun for a Monday night! But well needed.

This weekend I had a lot to deal with. One was my younger brother Scott (yes the bad one that need to stop blaming the world for everything he doesn’t have or everything he has done). I have told him he was not welcomed at my house after stealing money from me and constantly lying to me. What does he do? Shows up at my house and says "I don’t have no where to stay, can I sleep out in your driveway in Dusty’s car?" WTF dude? Now the loving person I am can not let him sleep out in this car. I was so mad at him. Why does he always put me in this position? He knows I won’t let him starve nor sleep out in a car. So I let him sleep on the couch, knowing full well I would hear it from Aaron. I told him "Scott you can stay tonight but that’s it, you know better than coming here." He returns and says "But I love you and I wanted to see you and make sure you were okay." "Scott, you know I am fine, hell I am the only one in the family that is ever "fine" please don’t do this to me again." "Can I borrow $10 till I get my check?" "Here but you have to pay me back, you know money doesn’t grow on trees right, or at least it doesn’t for me.""Thanks sista ...(kiss on the cheek)" (kiss back). Okay one night that’s not too bad, Aaron won’t be too pissed at me. But what the hell was I suppose to do ...right ...he is my blood. So Friday morning I wake up get ready for work, get everyone else up. "Scott, you have to leave, you can’t stay here while we are at work." "Okay ....someone is on their way to get me to take me to get my check." "Great just you have to leave when Dusty leaves." "No problem sista" (he thinks he’s this thug and is always acting like one) I go to my other little brother that lives with me, "Dusty, he has to leave here, do not leave him here and lock ALL the doors." "Okay I will ...love you have a good day." So off to work I went, thinking great they are listening to me, yay! Lunch time I decided to stop by the house and check on "things". Who is still at my house all alone ...yes that’s right Scott. *grrr damn it motherfucker* "What are you doing here? Didn’t I tell you, you had to leave?" "Well my ride never showed up so I just went in through the back door, it’s hot outside and I didn’t want to sit outside and wait for you to get home." WTF dude? "Wait for what Scott?" "I need to stay here again tonight, but I’ll sleep in the car okay." "No it’s just the same as you sleeping on my couch." So he stays over again and I get yelled at by Aaron because once again I am choosing my family over him.

*grrrrrrr*

I am soo tired of being pulled in both directions. I told my boss the other day I just want to leave them all and let them figure out what to do. No more running to Aasta. She left ...she was tired ...she will not be back ...she doesn’t have all the answers and she sure in the hell can’t please them all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But this is my crazy life. And tell you what, this is only a part of what I deal with. A part I wanted to share today. Sure there is a lot of great things too in my life. It’s just dealing with the crap first before I find the light. I am okay for anyone that was wondering if I was. I have so much more to write about but will leave it for the next time.

Here is part of a song that I am in love with all the sudden, can you guess it?

So you sailed away ...Into a grey sky morning. Now I’m here to stay .....Love can be so boring.
Nothing’s quite the same now ...I just say your name now

But it’s not so bad ...You’re only the best I ever had .
You don’t want me back ...You’re just the best I ever had.

So you stole my world ...Now I’m just a phony. Remembering the girl ...Leaves me down and lonely.

Send it in a letter. Make yourself feel better.

But it’s not so bad ...You’re only the best I ever had .
You don’t want me back ...You’re just the best I ever had.

"Love can be so boring" Now that is a concept I never thought of ...have you?

~night time kisses~