It’s strange how this world works. You might feel that no one in this world understands your position, yet there are so many with same troubles if not even worst. Last night everything I have been going through finally got the best of my nerves. I have been holding the stress of my situation so well... I had thought.

But today is a new day.......

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My Mother has taught me something I should have known a long time ago. Save money ...make your self a nest egg!!! My mother has nothing, not one dime. This really saddens me that she didn’t think about the "what ifs" Why didn’t she do this, I constantly ask myself. I have been so broke by supporting her. It has sicken me to the point of throwing up from all the stress. Yesterday was Monday, I should have money still, nope, I got about $30 bucks to my name. The dogs need food, we need food, mom needs her medicine, and the wants and needs to not stop there. I am so ashamed of myself for being in this spot. Granted I will be okay, and so will they. I gave mom $20 today for gas (grrrrr we won’t go on that subject) so she could make her appointment in Springfield for the Neurologists. She is having a complete exam done for the Psychologist that we will be seeing Thursday to figure out what is the mental state she is in. I am so dreading this appointment. I have to go due to being mom’s Power of Attorney. Mother is planning on going off on this Dr. for the last time we went the Dr. tried prescribing mom some meds for an infection mom had running in her body. The Dr. prescribed a medicine that would have killed her do to the Cartizam she is taking for her heart. Luckly the Pharmacy caught it and would give it to mom. The Dr. knew of all my mothers medicine and yet still made a simple but deadly mistake. So mom as the sweet lady she so is (sighs) is planning on letting this lady have it. My position is this Dr. we need, so she can fill out a mental statement for mom’s SSI & Disability case. I know what the Dr. did could have killed mom, but gosh we need her help so we can get mom the help. Last time we had went the Dr. talked to me and not to mom. I dislike psychologists but this one I liked. She was really good with mom I thought, and now that she made this mistake of prescribing the wrong drug I feel mom may piss her off and then it’s up to me to find another Dr. We will see Thursday I suppose. I just pray I can get this statement completed before the Dr. decides to kick us out of her office.

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My sweet sister Michelle needs all of your positive thoughts. She is going through something that is and will always be my biggest fear. Please visit her blog and send your thoughts to her, she needs all that she can get. I love you my sweetie, you are an amazing woman and you will beat anything that is thrown your way. I just know it. Keep us all updated and call me if you ever need to. I just love you so much!

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I am sending my love and positive thoughts to everyone that needs them. Sometimes this world can be so crazy and all it can take to make your day... is comfort from another soul.

This I offer to you ...I pray it can help in anyway.

~Sweet Smooches & Lots of Lovie Love~