Why am I so tired today? I mean I can barley open my eyes. I went to bed at a reasonable hour, yet I am dog tired. Maybe some coffee might get me going ...
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The other day I learned some information about a close (or I thought) friend. I was very upset and still am. She did something she shouldn’t have done. Of course her excuse was she was "weak". Damn I’m "weak" too some days but you do not see me using that as an excuse for my actions. I know she has went through a lot, but she has this "bright" future ahead of her. Her fiancé will be there on the 11th of this month. Now he is the reason I learned about what had happen. Yet what he wrote infuriated me even more. The word "Rape" was used and I was hysterical. Then to find out "rape" did not occur I felt like such the dumbass. I know I can not change the things out of my hands, I just pray to the Gods & Goddess for the strength to look pass this.
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My mother upset me over the weekend pretty bad. She had said she was leaving Sunday. Where too you might wonder? No where. She is homeless. She was hateful to me all weekend and for what. Because she was mad at Aaron. Well guess what Aaron was mad at her. Reason: Mom decided to chop down our HUGE rose bush. This rose bush has been at our house since Aaron was 3. It had just started to arch over. Not anymore. Cut, wasted away. I understand why she did it, but what I don’t understand is she not asking one of us before she did it. Now I have hell to pay from both sides. .......................it never ends!
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Planning on another camping trip starting Friday this week. I am so excited to get away for the weekend. This time I get to bring my sweet sister Crystal. We plan to get smashed!!! I will be bringing the camera to share all our wild events. So look forward to laughing your as off soon at us. I can’t wait to sit by the camp fire and go swimming when ever I might want. Ohhh Late Night Skinny Dipping!!!!!!!! I just can’t wait any more. ......is it Friday yet?
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A song to end my mindless chatter:
Godsmack "Greed"
Two Faced! I feel you crawling under my skin. Sickened by your face.
By the way, to think that you’re so fucking kind? You ain’t!
Hard to find how I feel, especially when you’re smothering me.
Hard to find how I feel, please someone help me!
I knew when an angel whispered into my ear, You gotta get him away, Hey little bitch!
Be glad you finally walked away or you may have not lived another day.
Hard to find how I feel, especially when you’re smothering me.
Hard to find how I feel, please someone help me!
Hard to find how I feel, controlling me every step of the way.
Hard to find how I feel, you greedy little baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!
3 comments:
Sorry to hear about what is going on with you, your mom and Aaron. Tough situation, especially when you had nothing to do with it in the first place. So, your house is the house Aaron grew up in? Or did you just bring the rose bush to that house? Sounds to me like your mom is being a bit childish. No offense. But, it seems like she wants you to take her side. So, to help you out try repeating after me: I am like Switzerland. I am like Switzerland. Neutral to the end. : )
I also saw what you were talking about at the beginning of your post a few days ago. I didn't believe the whole "rape" thing when I saw it. I knew who was being talked about and that is just a bad situation. My only hope is that your friend reads this and realizes that she is better than that and has to own her own life. Her choices are her own, either good or bad. Accept responsibility for mistakes and move to make things right. I have told her that, but maybe it will sink in one day soon.
Camping you say??????? Nah, I won't go there again. Heh. Hang in there.
The offer still stands for some "fuck it" pills. : )
Aasta,
I have a confession to make. I was the one who told Spirit about what was going on with HER and HIM to begin with becasue I saw what SHE and HE were doing behind Spirits back, hence why HE left VHLS. Quite honestly, I knew SHE would do it to you too if given the oppertunity but I didn't have the heart to tell you. I guess I wanted to believe that SHE wouldn't do it to you. I'm sorry, sweetheart. *pouts*
Tell your mom to stop being so childish and tell Aaron that as painful as it is, he's gonna have to let go of the rose bush. Crap happens. Tell your mom that the next time she wants to mess with stuff that she needs to get your's or Aaron's approval first becasue even though you appreciate her help, there are some thing that need to stay right where they are. There is no need for such overly exagerated behavior form your mom or Aaron. Granted it has centimental value. I understand that, but it can grow back with time and love. Moms don't grow back with time and love and niether do boyfriends.
Just my rant.
I love you, sweetheart! *TIGHT SQUEEZES and DEEP CUDDLES with soft shoulders to lean on*
just me again.....
my love I already told you in person about the rose bush and just aaron and mom, sometimes I just want to doink the both of them in the head and say shit man look what your doing to aasta hell guys lets get with it well you know I will if you want me too. ~grins~ I will always take care of you my sweetness, always! you know you can always escape out here with me and the horses, you and aaron both can if need be. you know that I love you and no matter what I will stand by you. you are my sweet sister! my butterfly...my rainbow... hugs you so tight oh how much I love you. ~smiles~ you always have us. mom, dad ,me and the kids. we are your family always.
as for our camping trip OHFG.. excuse my language but hell girl what can I say it was ~sweet~
never have I been so relaxed in a long damn time giggles... and my hot momma picture whoo hooo isnt she pretty lol. cant wait to check out my journal you set up for me... come see me come to the farm... smell the horses... relax with us... I hope you get this post that I have left you, I know how busy you have been with work and just family life and all. know that I love you, you are my family. forever my love my sister... hugs, smooches and lots of love... CM
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