Rambles

Lets see where to start at ....

Well I didn’t get to go to the titty bar. ~pouts big time~ My co-worker, Ashley, backed out and the boss and I felt it would be really strange for just us two to go. See the reason my co-worker backed out is the bossman is dating her mother, Kathy. She felt that her mom would be upset. Granted she might have been, but now the mother/girlfriend is going to go with us soon. So now we need to get another date in mind. I think that if and when we do get to go it will be so much fun. His girlfriend is a blast to be around, and so is my co-worker. Such gorgeous women! And my boss, well ....he can be a lot of fun as well, then you throw me in the mix and wooohoo nelly!! *LMAO* It’s great that we all get along so well. I wonder how things will change when my other co-worker, Cindy, has her baby. (Due in December). She handles most of all the billing and such. So with her out for a while if not longer I feel that adding a new person to the group might hurt us, but then you never know what it would do until he hires someone new. I’ve been going to court with him a lot lately. It’s been really interesting and helpful for what I do because I get to see it all in action instead of stuck typing the documents and whatnot.

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Mom has stopped taking the medicine her psychologist gave her. One reason is because it is for seizures, and two it makes her dog ass tired, where all she does is sleep. I have notice this as well. But she has been off them for a couple days now and I see the improvement of her well being. I just hate that she is so depressed. I feel there isn’t anything more I can do. I wish she had a best friend to talk to, I know it must get old talking to me. Plus when she does start talking about things it’s like "Why doesn’t Aaron do a damn thing around the house" or "I am so sorry babygirl for doing this to yall" or "The dogs need a bath" or "You should talk to your brother and forgive him, he is trying". And I could go on and on. What I think she doesn’t see is having her and my little bro Dusty living with us, is really starting to take it’s toll. Dusty has lived with us for about 3 years now. You would think he would have found a place by now. It would be easier if he was on his own, then it wouldn’t be so bad, I could give mom his room and that way she have a place to escape. He told me the other day he has saved enough money, and now it’s finding a place close to work since he is vehicle less. But you know that takes effort to look for a place and I have not seen him put forth it. We will see. I just keep praying for some light.

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Have a date with my girl on Saturday night. She says I have to dress "cute". ~Grins~ (but ain’t I always cute ....batts eyes) I can’t wait. I don’t even know what she has in store, but the two of us together ....mmmm mighty fun I can say. These are times I wish I was single, so we could tear the place up. But I am not and I do not cheat ....so I will try my hardest to behave myself. Maybe we can play "Have you meet Crystal?". ~LMAO~ I think we could find a lot of men that would love to meet Crystal! ~WEG~ Wish us luck!

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I went into yahoo chat yesterday, something I haven’t done in ages. I couldn’t believe my eyes when I entered into one of the Dungeon rooms ...low and behold there he was ....Vamp Sir. OMG I hadn’t spoken to Him nor ferel is such a long time. It was very nice to see a familiar face again. I got the feeling that He wasn’t as happy to see me as I was. We used to be real close but after I gave my VHLS tags back our relationship has never been the same. God I miss those days when I was a member of that home. I felt I "belonged" I felt I was "loved" I felt I was "needed". But with time all things change. I left that room so He could get back to talking to whoever He was talking to and went to another Dungeon room. Here I knew no one, but just like the first time I ever went into a Dungeon room I meet a few that wanted to chat to me. And not in pm ...in the room. Before I knew it I had been there an hour or two. It was a lot of fun and made me realize how much I really had missed it. Of course I was trolled to death, but even so I didn’t mind. This is a place I met my sister Michelle. I am so thankful to have her now a part of my life and now to even know her more than I did in VHLS, it’s just so damn awesome. So thank You Vamp for welcoming me in and showing me there are real people that do care.

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Gosh, I can ramble ...can’t I! ~LMAO~ I feel in good spirts today. Maybe it’s something in the air ...maybe the light is getting ready to shine down on me. I have to stay positive or I will enter into a dark hole where no one should ever be.

~Hot Sexy Smooches~