Update of Sorts ...

It’s not that I haven’t had anything to say. It’s that I’ve been so busy lately, and when I am not busy I’m not in the state of mind to be typing. *laffs* Let’s see ...I got a raise at work not to long ago. Which has really helped me to save even more money. I’ve become such a tight ass with money, well with MY money. *giggles* Other people in my life think I’m crazy, I think I’m smart. Speaking of work, it’s been super busy as well. You know what sucks about being Number One ...being number one! *LOL* I mean come now, how the hell am I suppose to remember everything and be expected to do it at the same time. Don’t get me wrong I do love my work, it’s just I wish I wasn’t so "unreplaceable". I know job security ... but damn it! *laffs at myself* I was very happy to see one of our huge criminal cases be dropped by the PA because well they didn’t have a leg to stand on. Sad part about that it is that it has ruined our client’s reputation in the town, even though none of the accusations were true. I hope they find some piece of mind now. I am so thankful to have a boss like mine. He is good to me and very good to the public people. It pisses me off when I hear someone talk shit about him. Most of the people in this town don’t have a heart like his. I respect him to the upmost level. The things I have seen him do for people over the last four years has really touched my heart. Thanks boss man!!!

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So Chris, Travis and Aaron finally won a paintball tournament. Plus they are now number one in the series. It was last weekend in Kansas, they took first place. Each of them won a $400 paintball gun and a $200 "hopper". Hoppers load the paintballs into the gun btw. (Yeah I’m learning things even when I could careless ....giggles). I am so happy for them and I hope they continue on this path of winning. I guess it was down to the last round, Chris and Travis got shot out and Aaron was left. From what I gather from their conversations, the other team thought they had shot Aaron out first. Aaron got a "paint check" and was called clean. As Aaron watched the other team grab the flag and walk towards their end, Aaron "lit" up the guy in the back and as soon as the last team member on the other team can out to celebrate their assumed victory, Aaron shot his ass out too. In a way I wished I could have seen it, but then again I am so glad I was not there. Job well done boys!!!!

It’s funny how the mind can play with you. Most might not know about my fear of guns, it’s a long and sad story and maybe someday I’ll relive it for all to read. The sound of something firing off really gets my heart going. A couple of weeks ago I went out with Aaron to Black Buffalo practice. Aaron took his gun to have the boys try it. I stayed inside but could still hear the sound off the gun going off. True it’s a paintball gun, but tell my heart that. I was ready to get the fuck out of dodge. That feeling hasn’t happened in a very long time. It’s a scary feeling I get and I don’t like it. I think Aaron thinks I’m making it up, but I’m not. It’s just something I have dealt with and thought I had long taken care of it. Much to my dismay, the feeling caught up with me and I was disgusted. So that is one reason of many why I don’t go to the tournaments, I just can’t get that feeling to pass when I hear those guns go 90 to nothing.

Still super proud of the guys for winning and being number one in the series.

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I’m a pretty sad cookie. I wrote to one of my "best" friends a three page letter in April. Laying it all out there. Still to this day I have never got a response from them. It hurts. It sucks. But maybe that is the response they wanted to give ...nothing at all. Oh well I guess. It just sucks so bad. It’s like a slap in the face. *ouch damn it* Why do I waste my time?

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Black Buffalo has had a small set back. Shane the "8 Ball Jester" has decided to leave the band. So now they have their CD with a guy on it that is no longer a part of them. It’s sad, but I see both sides. I hope Shane finds what he out there looking for. And I pray the band moves forward without a major set back. The shows they played last weekend were great I was told. It’s just different now. But different is not always a bad thing. Good luck boys!

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So I put some red streaks in my hair. OMG I loved it. Now though it’s faded away. The color was so bright at first, my hair girl forgot to tell me that for the next four washes that the red would slowly come out. It’s still there but not as vibrant as it was the first few days. I took a picture and put it on my Myspace. You can kinda see the red. I don’t know what I’ll do next with it. It’s getting so long again. Some of the people I deal with on a daily basis were all like "but what about the wedding?" What about it? *laffs* Who knows maybe I’ll have blue and green hair for the wedding, it is MY hair and MY wedding now isn’t it? *giggles*

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Been slacking on writing a new erotic tale. I have so many ideas for the next one, now it’s just finding the time to get it out there. Hopefully maybe this weekend I can begin to get it typed. Aaron should be gone all day Saturday and I’ll be getting off not to late. We’ll see I guess.

~sunny smooches under the oak tree~