Is it okay that since I grew up dirt-ass poor that I should just be okay with being dirt-ass poor as an adult? What brings me to this dying question today ...Aaron. Yesterday I guess I was wanting some kind of "support" from him that things will get better money wise. And he had the balls to say to me "Well Aasta you were dirt-poor all your life, shouldn’t be such a hard thing to deal with now." WTF ....no you didn’t just say that shit to me! But yes he did. Maybe I shouldn’t have came home wanting to "talk". Who cares that my bank account has dwindled down to a mere $90. It’s okay ...I’ve been dirt-ass poor before, nothing new to this girl. *GRRRRRRRRRR* But it is, since the first day I went to work in my life I have strived to make sure I could pull myself up from being dirt-poor. And then here I was ahead with money ...ahead on OUR bills and bam ....whoopsy Aaron hurt his knee and well now Aasta must take care of him. It would be so wrong of me to leave him when he is at his low. It’s so wrong of me for wanting any kind of support or even a thank you. I’m such an horrible person for thinking about myself. *rolls eyes*

Then oh hey ...."You’re the one holding off us getting married." WTF? Oh yeah because we can get married without having to pay for anything. Oh wait ...that’s right I’m suppose to pay for it ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLl! Well this girl maybe stupid in some areas but this subject I am not. There is no possible way I will pay for our wedding. Sure I will help pay for some of it, but not the whole fucking thing! So friends it just maybe a few more years before I tie any knots.

I’m crazy pissed off and I am trying to deal with it as an adult but it’s so fucking hard. I know money doesn’t make the world go round, I am not a $$$ orientated person. Is it such a horrible thing to want$200 in my bank account at any given time. Accidents happen and they always happen to my life.

~kisses are now $1 a piece bitches ...muwhahahaha~