This is the week I have been waiting on. Sure I know your thinking ...because it’s Thanksgiving, but that is far off from why I am so happy. It’s because I finally have more than 1 or 2 days off, I got 4! Most people have those four days anyways, but I have wanted some days off forever now. Granted I love my job, there is no doubt there. But I am in need of a little rest and an energize so I’m back to full speed. I have notice for about a few months now I have been running on empty. Snapping at the smallest thing, getting pissed for no real reason. It hasn’t been fair to those that are around me, and really it’s not fair to myself. So yes ....finally I will have some rest.

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First things first ...I’m breaking my promise to Crystal this one time. Yes I’m writing about you here! ~sticks tongue out~As anyone that has read past posts this women is the closest person to me. Lately we have not been talking as much as normal. Sure when we see each other a quick hi and bye ...a laugh here or there, but we both know we have not faced what happen. Biggest part is too much time has passed and now I don’t even know what to say. One of her posts (which btw I am so happy she is back to writing), said "You know that you get in the biggest fights with the people that you care about the most, because those are relationships your willing to fight for..." That is so true. Our "fight" resulted in hurt and misunderstood feelings from each other. She is the one person in my life I would fight to the end for. I don’t want to lose her and I do not want anyone to hurt her or harm her. It’s kinda funny that she has found him, because all I wanted was for this to happen for her. She so deserves this, and she has longed for it for so long. My biggest fear ..I will lose her forever. But if that meant her happiness would live on then so be it. Sure I can hear her now "Your not going to lose me ..ever." but I feel this way and I can’t change that. The first time I felt this way was the night it started. I wanted to spend time with them and well she wanted to spend time with him. Never had I ever thought about this in this way. I am sorry for feeling this way, and I also feel it is wrong of me, but it is my feeling. Soon all will be laid before us and we both will mend and heal and move on. I love you to life my best friend, I always will. I apologize for writing again here about you, but this is my life and you are one big factor in it! (get used to it) But for you and only for you I will not write about you here again.

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I pray all my loving friends that your Turkey Day is awesome. Know you are in my thoughts at this time of year the most.

What I am thankful for ...
I am thankful for life, for family, for friends, for work, and for everything that gets us by when the going gets tough.

Most of all I am thankful for love.

~Soothing Smooches & Compassionate Hugs~