Ahhh my blog ....kiss kiss kiss.

First I want to wish a very black birthday to my sweetest, Michelle. Happy Belated Birthday babydoll (was December 1st). Go out and paint the town black.

*winks* Those above are all for you.

~black night smooches all over your hot body~

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The four days I had off was not near enough. *laffs* Thanksgiving sucked and I didn’t even get to do anything for me. *pouts* My mother went off on Aaron and myself Saturday. Wasn’t very pretty and she didn’t even give us a chance to speak either. Few days later she says it was all for me, defending me against the way Aaron treats me. Sad part is he has gotten better due to me letting him know that I am not a puppet and that I do have feelings and that I do need help and that I do not bitch all the freaking time like others do. Where was she 2 years ago when maybe then I needed some one to defend me. It’s funny that the times you want the help or support no one wants to offer, but when you have things going good it seems they want to stick their noses in it and then say ..."well it was for you". *sigh* I think Thanksgiving would have went better if I would have had a dinner at my home. There is something about Aaron’s family that makes me very uncomfortable to be around for any time period. Now his Mom, well I love her to life and I could spent hours upon hours with her. But as for the rest of them I just don’t get that "family" feeling from them. Aaron says I’m crazy for feeling this way, that his family loves me. It’s not that I doubt they love me, it’s just the feeling I have when we are together. Maybe it’s because Aaron and I aren’t married, do not have children, and/or because we live in "sin". Also could it be that all they do is gossip about this person or that. Or could it be that they hate my boss due to years ago he represented someone against their son in a child custody matter, so now they hold this grudge even though the son won and my boss lost. All of these things and more add up. I wish I could feel good when I’m with them, I tried so hard to. Nobody is perfect and I know I am far from it, but I have been told I have the perfect nose. *laffs & winks*

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Finally got my home pc running good. I have had to teach Aaron how to protect the computer when he goes off looking at porn. Three times now I have had to completely re-boot my pc due to him accepting things that should not be accepted and finally infecting my computer. Maybe this time it will stick and I won’t have anymore problems. But then again he is off work for about 2 weeks and well I know he will be surfing the porn sites. This doesn’t bother me because I do, do the same. What bothers me is when I know he was and he wants to deny it because the computer is fucked up once again. Fingers crossed he has learned his lesson.

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I saw the first snowflake Monday morning. Ahh the snow. When I first moved to this region I hated the thought of it. Here a girl from Texas moves to a redneck state. OMG I was in misery. Now though as I look back I have fell in love with the winter, with the snow, and with the leaves as they turn and fall to the ground.

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As for all my loved ones. I send you my thoughts and love.

~smooches~