These Dreams ...

My sleeping patterns have sucked dick lately. I’m up at least every other hour, be it I have to pee, I’m thirsty, or I’m just tossing and turning. I just don’t get it. I usually am a good sleeper, but in this last week I can’t sleep through-out the whole night without waking up. Last night was really bad because every time I got to sleep I was dreaming dreams that made no sense. For example; I was standing out side of this trailer and there was quite a few people all around. Must have been like a party or something. There was this guy, clean cut and pretty damn good looking too. He approached, we chatted about something, he kissed me, I blushed, I then woke up. It was almost like I was watching over this, it wasn’t like I was seeing through my eyes. I was observing it. Then I get back to sleep again and this guy is in the next dream, but so is Aaron. We are all in some kind of parking lot. I see that guy again and he smiles. I lean down and kiss Aaron’s neck and then I wake up again. *grrrrr* So back to sleep once more. There is my mother, my youngest brother and me in this huge house. At first it was just us, but then people started coming in. Once again this guy is there and I watch myself slip out the door, I see him follow, he finds me, we kiss and then I wake up again. Luckily it was time for me just to stay awake and get in the shower. But dreams like these freak me out. What the hell does it mean? Why must my mind place this images before me? I love Aaron with all my heart and yet I still dream of other men. Granted I do have lots of dreams about Aaron, but most are that he is with someone else. I know deep down dreams do mean something. Maybe I’m just fearful to face what that might be.

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So tonight we are going to the Ozark Empire Fair in Springfield! *YAY* I love fairs, I love corn dogs, I love the rides, I love the people, I hate the heat! *laffs* Tonight will be the coolest night so far so it shouldn’t be to bad. Aaron promised me that he would win me something tonight. *awwww* I can’t wait! A couple of our friends will be joining us so at least I’ll have someone to ride rides with. (Aaron is a big pussy) *giggles and looks around ...I didn’t say that* Last year I got his mother to ride the craziest ride they had, she told me she couldn’t do that again, was too scarey for her. *giggles* I just love the danger I suppose.

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I haven’t done much on Myspace this week. Sorry to anyone who has missed me over there. I really do love that site. I was going to look for another background, but then I decided I really like the one I have. My mother made her an account, so now I got to show her how to use it. She was always use to just chatting and meeting people through Yahoo. But now she says no one uses that much anymore and if they do she doesn’t care for them. Both my brothers also have an account. *laffs* Myspace will take over the world one day. Okay well maybe not but jezz it’s freaking huge!

I hope that you all have a lovely weekend. I miss you my wicked pixie friend, I pray you are just fine. Mr. Anonymous, it’s so nice to see you around here once more. Oh and yeah in regards to my last post, they are soooo cool in my book, but I do like that style of music the most. Been listing to VH1 Classic Metal Mania - Stripped, that’s not a bad cd for the music they put on there. Plus it’s all stripped. Ahhh I love it.

~sizzling smooches~